Jun 24, 2009

Ok, so yesterday I had a mini breakdown on Twitter and decided I've had enough with these men and the games that they play [not all men, but most of them].  I had Kelis' song "I Hate You So Much Right Now" on full blast in my room when I had an epiphany.  You see I could relate to everything that song was saying and I knew that meant it was time for action.  In the words of the great Fannie Lou Hamer, "I am sick and tired of being sick and tired."  So, I decided I was going to take myself out of the game for a week.  You know, take a mini sabbatical and get my mind right.  Well, eventually after talking to a friend I realized that taking a week wasn't long enough.  I needed to give myself at least a month to reevaluate and figure out what was really going on.  You see its very easy for me to lay all the blame of my problems at the feet of men, but at the end of the day, I am the common denominator in this situation.  I need to figure out what it is about me that keeps attracting these emotionally unavailable men.  Am I the one whose really emotionally unavailable and thus I keep attracting men just like me?  And if I am emotionally unavailable, why is that?  You see there are so many questions I need to ask myself and I need to be honest with my answers.  I have to be honest enough with myself to admit the fact I don't really know what I want in a man.  I know what I don't want, but I don't know what I want.  It's very easy to say I want a man who is honest, kind, romantic, spiritual, funny you know all the typical stuff, but is that enough?
I want to figure out why is it that I know some of the most wonderful women on earth and they're all single.  I'm talking about professional-god-fearing-volunteer in their community-know how to burn in the kitchen type women and they're all single.  What is this really all about?  Why can't these sistas get a man that love them for them?  It amazes me.  I know all the blame can't be place on the man so I want to figure out what is it that we as women are doing wrong.  I realize this may extend my strike to a time period longer than a month, but I am willing to make the sacrifice.  Hell, if I'm able to solve this riddle I might as well throw World Peace into the mix...LOL!!!  I realize I may have a better chance at that. 
I plan on talking to other women and men to find out what is really going on.  I will also be talking to some married couples to see how they got together and how they are making it work.  I'm not talking about just newlyweds, but people who have been together for ten plus years and are still in love with each other (this is very important because there are some people who are married in name only).   
I guess the reason I am doing this is because the romantic side of me refuses to believe that love and marriage is a thing of the past.  I guess you can chop that up to me being a Pisces.  So, I hope you guys will come along as I chronicle my journey on my Man-Strike.  This strike is not about bashing men, but rather about me getting some clarity for myself and removing all the noise that has become apart of my life.  So if you wish to join me on this journey just leave me a comment in the comment section.  Even if you don't want to join me please leave me a comment anyway.  I love to know what you guys think (Good or Bad).
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